today didnt really want to go to church but i still dragged myself out of the house and go...so things went as normal..until....during the first praise and worship i think is the devil reminded me about the operation..which most of ur know about it...i got really very upset and very lost....i dont know what to do..my mum and my lect encourage me to go for the operation...jus some how or rather remember what my mum told me last night..and during praise n worship i started crying...but i still try to hold back my tears as much as i could...so during the sermon, i didnt really paying much attention to it..cos i was really very distracted...so here come the altar call..i confessed and told God that i didnt really paying attention and asked for forgiveness..so during the second praise and worship somehow or rather my tears started to roll down again..really asking God to help me bt seems that i'm really very distracted...nth happened bt i still crying...so during the cell group decided to break the news to my leader, Mic Bay..i told her abt it..while telling her i cried again..she asked me can let the cell group ppl know about it or not i told her can..so she told the cell group and they started to pray for me and i jus continue crying...we always say pray like never before..bt today for me is cry like never before...crying non-stop.. after cell group..shi feng asked me am i rushing back home?i told her not and asked her why..she asked me to go plaza with her to buy something...bt she said she wants to walk there...so i told her okay...so walked to hillside(along bukit timah) she told me that she very tired..want to take bus..so we took bus...when we reached e interchange, i saw jonathan, evan, marvin, hsien tze and peiqi...jonathan was holding on to a cake..and they started to sing..i was really very shocked...really thank all of u...making the effort to plan all these...

10:29 PM

today i guess gonna b a long post..together with some pics i have...first of all i really want to thank all of u guys who planned today's birthday surprise...especially CAROL and AMEERA!!!who planned all these...really didnt expect it to be today..shima n i both thought that ur will be celebrating tmr...but anyway tis was what happened...during maths class carol, priya, pat and saleha said that they wan to go to e washroom so i didnt think so much until they didnt come back like after about 10mins..so i told shima that i sense something not right...bt i not sure what is it that's nt right...so shima said wan to die die together..cos her birthday is 1 day after mine..lol...so abt 12pm carol, priya and saleha came back...jus nice lesson ended...bt pat haven come back...so i was thinking something nt right bt didnt bother to think so much...so when we walked out of the room, i saw pat's reflection on the window...so i thought she jus lazy to go back into the class n listen to e stupid lecturer...the nxt moment she jus appeared in front of me with a cake...i got a shocked...seriously gt a SHOCKED!!!that's part one of it..so went to south canteen and waited for carol n pat to come so that shima n i can cut the cake...bt they didnt appear at all...so we were waiting n waiting...finally we called carol they asked us to cut the cake first...so we cut the cake..and shima sabo me by taking some cream and smashed it on my face...bt it landed on my hair...lol..so i chase after her...n both of us had cream on our face... here comes the part 2...soon aft carol came with two blind-folds...she blind-folded us...and made us walked around dunno where...jus walked around to a place full of candles on the floor which says 18&19...when we took our our blind-folds shima cried cos really very touching and i almost cry...bt i hold back my tears..i was totally speechless and all i did was jus give them a bow..is really very touching..and part 3 came abt when we were abt to enter library...REALLY THANKS TO ALL OF U GUYS...ESPECIALLY CAROL AND AMEERA(who came down and got the cake for us)...BIG THANK YOU FROM MY BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!

9:18 PM

today went to west coast park with my cell group...had fun there...but i got some strange stuffs on my head..all thanks to Lora, Gladys, Sherie, Olivia...we reached there and we started to play some games...seems that everything went well until Lora told Jonathan to change place with me...sense that some thing's not right...so i just continue to be in my own world...we were playing this game that we had to climb all the way to the top...my team was Michelle Bay, Olivia, ShiFeng,Evan, Yuting, Lixin, Yunmei and myself(of cos)..Lora and Gladys told Olivia and Shifeng to take their time to climb up...but we all dont know abt it...and in the end my team lost...not because they r slow..but is jus that evan climbed half way n there's this little girl blocked his way n he cant move...that's e reason y we lost...n we all gt water-bombed...esp mic n i...we(mic and i) all gt very dirty...due to the strange stuffs...had hard time washing them off...i supposed to meet carol to study at 3pm today bt in e end i reached at 5pm..cos i went back ho me to bathe again...cos very dirty...aft bathe i took cab to carol's place...while travelling i still can smell e orange juice on my hair...so when i reached i told carol n pat abt it..carol said that later go her hse den wash again...so i just joked with her saying that u help me wash la...in e end she washed for me seh..nt only wash bt even blow my hair dry...super funny...(if u wan to know more abt tis come n ask me n i'll tell u more)...wahaha...but anyway...thanks to all of u...really had fun...(also the washing of my hair)...wahaha...

11:24 PM

it been so long never since i come online and update...always online doing my projects, tutorials and even my lab reports...so likewise for today i supposed to do my lab report and my revision for my jap test tmr..but i decided to blog..to distress abit...haha...anyway..today things went well i guess..even though don't really have much sleep last night...but anyway, during my lab for design, i was calling e lecturer but then someone else also called him..so i told him to go over first b4 come coming back to me...and he's like go over and TOTALLY FORGOT about me!!!!i kept calling him but he was too busy to come n help me...beth and pat both tried to help me call him...until he finally stopped i called him again..he said something and went off...i was like super sad..and all of us kept laughing very loudly and non-stop..i was like laughed until my tears came out..in other words i laughed until i cry..but is really very sad because he TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT ME CALLING HIM!!!also we celebrated one of my classmates' birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU SHAFIQ!!!oh and that jiun wei hor..told him to meet today for dinner and he ended up went home...fly both my kite and carol's...argh!!!

10:50 PM

i'm back once again...ya...today went to study at Esplanade with carol,pat n eva...after tat we went to eat steamboat...eva was like playing with the food and all of us laughed like mad...oh..we had crabs for steamboat...for the first time i'm eating steamboat together with crabs...so fun lor..haha..

11:07 PM

today we watched this movie title "The Second Chance" is not a bad show just that e ppl in front kept blocking till i cant read e subtitles...bt nvm..it's over...learnt to let go things off during this week....i think is time to let go most of the things...really had happened alot of things which most ppl cant take it..including myself...too many le...really kind of tired...haiz...really kind of miss this person...

8:50 PM

today didnt really want to go to church but i still dragged myself out of the house and go...so things went as normal..until....during the first praise and worship i think is the devil reminded me about the operation..which most of ur know about it...i got really very upset and very lost....i dont know what to do..my mum and my lect encourage me to go for the operation...jus some how or rather remember what my mum told me last night..and during praise n worship i started crying...but i still try to hold back my tears as much as i could...so during the sermon, i didnt really paying much attention to it..cos i was really very distracted...so here come the altar call..i confessed and told God that i didnt really paying attention and asked for forgiveness..so during the second praise and worship somehow or rather my tears started to roll down again..really asking God to help me bt seems that i'm really very distracted...nth happened bt i still crying...so during the cell group decided to break the news to my leader, Mic Bay..i told her abt it..while telling her i cried again..she asked me can let the cell group ppl know about it or not i told her can..so she told the cell group and they started to pray for me and i jus continue crying...we always say pray like never before..bt today for me is cry like never before...crying non-stop.. after cell group..shi feng asked me am i rushing back home?i told her not and asked her why..she asked me to go plaza with her to buy something...bt she said she wants to walk there...so i told her okay...so walked to hillside(along bukit timah) she told me that she very tired..want to take bus..so we took bus...when we reached e interchange, i saw jonathan, evan, marvin, hsien tze and peiqi...jonathan was holding on to a cake..and they started to sing..i was really very shocked...really thank all of u...making the effort to plan all these...

10:29 PM

today i guess gonna b a long post..together with some pics i have...first of all i really want to thank all of u guys who planned today's birthday surprise...especially CAROL and AMEERA!!!who planned all these...really didnt expect it to be today..shima n i both thought that ur will be celebrating tmr...but anyway tis was what happened...during maths class carol, priya, pat and saleha said that they wan to go to e washroom so i didnt think so much until they didnt come back like after about 10mins..so i told shima that i sense something not right...bt i not sure what is it that's nt right...so shima said wan to die die together..cos her birthday is 1 day after mine..lol...so abt 12pm carol, priya and saleha came back...jus nice lesson ended...bt pat haven come back...so i was thinking something nt right bt didnt bother to think so much...so when we walked out of the room, i saw pat's reflection on the window...so i thought she jus lazy to go back into the class n listen to e stupid lecturer...the nxt moment she jus appeared in front of me with a cake...i got a shocked...seriously gt a SHOCKED!!!that's part one of it..so went to south canteen and waited for carol n pat to come so that shima n i can cut the cake...bt they didnt appear at all...so we were waiting n waiting...finally we called carol they asked us to cut the cake first...so we cut the cake..and shima sabo me by taking some cream and smashed it on my face...bt it landed on my hair...lol..so i chase after her...n both of us had cream on our face... here comes the part 2...soon aft carol came with two blind-folds...she blind-folded us...and made us walked around dunno where...jus walked around to a place full of candles on the floor which says 18&19...when we took our our blind-folds shima cried cos really very touching and i almost cry...bt i hold back my tears..i was totally speechless and all i did was jus give them a bow..is really very touching..and part 3 came abt when we were abt to enter library...REALLY THANKS TO ALL OF U GUYS...ESPECIALLY CAROL AND AMEERA(who came down and got the cake for us)...BIG THANK YOU FROM MY BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!

9:18 PM

today went to west coast park with my cell group...had fun there...but i got some strange stuffs on my head..all thanks to Lora, Gladys, Sherie, Olivia...we reached there and we started to play some games...seems that everything went well until Lora told Jonathan to change place with me...sense that some thing's not right...so i just continue to be in my own world...we were playing this game that we had to climb all the way to the top...my team was Michelle Bay, Olivia, ShiFeng,Evan, Yuting, Lixin, Yunmei and myself(of cos)..Lora and Gladys told Olivia and Shifeng to take their time to climb up...but we all dont know abt it...and in the end my team lost...not because they r slow..but is jus that evan climbed half way n there's this little girl blocked his way n he cant move...that's e reason y we lost...n we all gt water-bombed...esp mic n i...we(mic and i) all gt very dirty...due to the strange stuffs...had hard time washing them off...i supposed to meet carol to study at 3pm today bt in e end i reached at 5pm..cos i went back ho me to bathe again...cos very dirty...aft bathe i took cab to carol's place...while travelling i still can smell e orange juice on my hair...so when i reached i told carol n pat abt it..carol said that later go her hse den wash again...so i just joked with her saying that u help me wash la...in e end she washed for me seh..nt only wash bt even blow my hair dry...super funny...(if u wan to know more abt tis come n ask me n i'll tell u more)...wahaha...but anyway...thanks to all of u...really had fun...(also the washing of my hair)...wahaha...

11:24 PM

it been so long never since i come online and update...always online doing my projects, tutorials and even my lab reports...so likewise for today i supposed to do my lab report and my revision for my jap test tmr..but i decided to blog..to distress abit...haha...anyway..today things went well i guess..even though don't really have much sleep last night...but anyway, during my lab for design, i was calling e lecturer but then someone else also called him..so i told him to go over first b4 come coming back to me...and he's like go over and TOTALLY FORGOT about me!!!!i kept calling him but he was too busy to come n help me...beth and pat both tried to help me call him...until he finally stopped i called him again..he said something and went off...i was like super sad..and all of us kept laughing very loudly and non-stop..i was like laughed until my tears came out..in other words i laughed until i cry..but is really very sad because he TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT ME CALLING HIM!!!also we celebrated one of my classmates' birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU SHAFIQ!!!oh and that jiun wei hor..told him to meet today for dinner and he ended up went home...fly both my kite and carol's...argh!!!

10:50 PM

i'm back once again...ya...today went to study at Esplanade with carol,pat n eva...after tat we went to eat steamboat...eva was like playing with the food and all of us laughed like mad...oh..we had crabs for steamboat...for the first time i'm eating steamboat together with crabs...so fun lor..haha..

11:07 PM

today we watched this movie title "The Second Chance" is not a bad show just that e ppl in front kept blocking till i cant read e subtitles...bt nvm..it's over...learnt to let go things off during this week....i think is time to let go most of the things...really had happened alot of things which most ppl cant take it..including myself...too many le...really kind of tired...haiz...really kind of miss this person...

8:50 PM